Charlie Sheen

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I thought it I heard you laugh in a corner of a place I’ve never been

I feel like tearing up pages and performing on stages instead of being stuck in a cage of the societal scene

Comfortable in my skin i still wonder if you’d be around if I were more lean and less mean

The things I would give… my heart, my spleen

Maybe the I can’t give you the world but I promise I’d still treat you like a queen

I’ll keep my hair clean and we’ll never watch anything with Charlie sheen

I don’t know what else to say that’ll rhyme with sheen oh right, i hope to see your name calling on my phone screen


New Look and Name!


Hey readers!

I’ve changed the layout and name of my blog into a portfolio of my work so far. I will still be posting my opinions and thoughts (when I can!) as usual. I know it’s been a while, but look out for a post explaining my absence at the end of the month.

In the meanwhile, you can catch some of my articles here and here.

I want to also mention that I’m open to collaborate so don’t shun my contact page just yet.


Always with love,


REVIEW: OKJA, a nightmare in motion.

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It’s been a minute since I watched something that moved me in the way that Netflix’s original movie OKJA did. Before even going in depth why you should watch this movie, I would like to hand over all the awards including most horrific triggering movie of the year.

Disclaimer: there are potential spoilers in this piece – also this is purely my opinion so take it with a grain of salt if you do not feel the same way. 

I watched OKJA over the weekend with my friend, and thankfully someone was there because this movie is not something you’d want to watch alone (I made that mistake with Get Out). Personally, I try my best to leave as little carbon footprint unless it’s for a better; as a person in the creative industry I hold a belief that whatever you do should answer the question of WHY you’re doing what you do. Many people forget that there’s more to life than just creating content for monetary purposes.

The team and director behind this movie definitely had their purpose of letting the nightmare of animal abuse known to the public delivered with flying colors. It was both exhilarating to watch as it was horrifying. In one particular scene (and you’d know which scene I’m talking about) had me shaken until even now, the portrayal of innocence in Okja and Mija’s relationship was complete obliterated by this scene.

I can’t imagine how the people behind this must’ve felt within the research and execution of the movie because as it’s audience it triggered an ongoing nightmare of the reality that the science behind the story was based on real life actions by corporate animal farms.

As for the characters in the movie, I can’t find the words to describe the diversity. I love that this was not in English nor was it led by a caucasian award winner. Yes, Tilda Swinton, Jake Gyllenhaal, and a few other known actors and actresses were a part of the cast, but how they adapted to the characters they held was more than an award winning act. Swinton’s character completely erased her real life personality – same goes with former heartthrob Gyllenhaal who’s character is a washed up media personality that seems to be going in an existential psychotic crisis.

Paul Dano and Lily Collins were additional protagonist characters that played hero to animals in the movie. I absolutely loved the choreographed anti-fight scenes.

The storyline itself is simple – then again most of the best movies are. It’s a love story of a girl and her pet super pig; however this is not a family movie.

What made this movie so impactful to me is the delivery of this story not being in a post apocalypse time but in today’s world. The fictional animal made it easier to make an emotional connection compared to the regular pig or cow; however the true point being delivered is that you can replace Okja to your common cow, pig, buffalo, etc. and you’re watching a documentary that just happened to end well for the characters leading the movie.

Was I satisfied by the ending? Yes and no. I realize it’s improper to end a meaningful movie with a sugarcoated happy ending – but to see in the prolog that Okja is merely one of thousands that was saved… it was still heartbreaking.

Should you watch this movie? 100% YESS. 

Love or Power?

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It’s been a while since I found myself bewildered in an argument with my morality.

Recently a good friend of mine confided in me about how his feelings for a girl was shut down, with the rejection he felt as if he lost a power within himself. We ended up materializing this predicament of his in a scenario.

If the devil offered you the chance to gain a super power at the cost of the soul of your true love, would you?

This scenario, in my head plays out the ultimate question; are all things fair in love and war? If so, what happens if the devil came to play?

The conversation continues in a comic book timeline, giving the main character the super power to control all of nature’s elements. But of course, if he chose having power above love, what good is power without love?

Who’s the true villain when the main character intentionally gives another’s soul for his wellbeing? Is it still the devil that offers him the deal or is it the individual that broke his heart and stripped him from the power within him?

I ask myself, if I was given the choice to gain a super power over the expense of someone that truly hurt me, would I take the deal with the devil himself?

Honestly, until today I don’t know my own answer. 

So as usual, I bring my questions to various individuals. Fatima, a dear friend in Bahrain replied my question with her interpretation on the scenario:

It depends on what the power means to me versus what the person means to me. if presented with an opportunity to be myself… or who I used to be; sacrificing someone who didn’t accept me for who I am, even if I cared for them and they cared for me, they did destroy a part of me that I held dear.

I’d rather get reconciliation than live a life of bitterness. 

With the devil’s hand, there’s always a catch. In this scenario, my mind added the plot twist of the devil using that soul the character gives up and sends it back in different forms to test the human will against love. Fatima accepted the plot twist, and responded:

“I believe in that case; I wouldn’t resist love if I find it again… even if I lose my powers. Because if at that point love mattered to me more than keeping them, I wouldn’t fight it. Besides, the sacrifice would be my choice. Assuming the devil sends love my way in an attractive package, it’ll be hard to resist. I feel like I wouldn’t be bitter if I chose to compromise for love; lest love rejects and doesn’t appreciate the compromise I make, then I’ll raise hell myself. Powers or not…”

Naturally, I had to ask… what super powers would she give up love for? or vice versa.

“Ideally… to accept love I would give up any super power. But for a judgmental prick, I wouldn’t even give up the mere power of knowing which side of the coin would be up.”

I would have stopped with her response but I was still unsettled by the initial choice the friend who’d answer that power would be better than love. I mean sure, the ability to create gold out of water would have been both useful and cool.

But is ultimate power truly worth giving up another’s soul? 

From the people I’ve asked, more females answered that they would rather choose power, in my opinion this is due to females getting hurt more often than guys do. More guys in their twenties would give up super powers because they think that the chance of being happy with somebody special overweighs super powers like flying or mind reading. Additionally, the guys I asked would rather not gain such powers by sacrificing others. Perhaps, chivalry is not completely dead.

It’s not surprising seeing more females choose not to settle down early, personally, it’s a choice I make because of the many time I’ve been hurt before. The only guarantee a woman can get is the promise she makes to herself and the efforts she knows that will be appreciated. Many guys, not all – but many guys tend to feel emancipated by a more successful woman.

But what is power without someone to share it with?

If said scenario was real, I think after the conversations I’ve had, I would choose power. But only for the ability to bend reality. Admit it, it would be fun to be able to manipulate atoms in your body to fit that cute dress on display at Forever 21. Others may choose the power to heal others, or even the ability to guess a gamble during a coin toss; but on a realistic note, women just want the power of equality – and that’s good enough for me.



Being 24 and working multiple jobs

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Many people underestimate the position of being a freelancer.

It’s not because I’m too lazy to work in an office job, nor is it because i continuously get rejection letters for the jobs that I do apply for.

Mainly, it’s a way I get to choose the work I want. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve done the agency life, the corporate life, hell – I’ve worked retail for a bit back in college. But none of those jobs, as much as I loved being in an agency – gave me a purpose.

Yes, I still take on mundane tasks  to pay the bills with, but that’s a given – not all jobs are for fun.

My assistant lecturing job is by far my favorite, but since it’s only a short semester I have to be ready to let go of my 60+ babies… and even that job has the downside of 10 different WhatsApp groups pinging every day and a constant need of a power outlet to charge.

My project planning job is a passion project – meaning until everything gets running, it doesn’t pay yet. I choose to stay on board because I believe in the project, the purpose of it stays close to my heart. I will post more about this once I get the okay. Promise!

and then there’s my transcribing and translation job…

While I work with a team, this is the job that pays Starbucks addiction and *when I take on a lot* pays for my 26th floor apartment. This is my least favorite but it pays the most when I do take in documents. The funny back story to how I got this job is actually at the last day of my corporate copywriting job… my Tinder contact asked me whether I was free, of course I thought it was so we could meet up for coffee but no, instead he offers me a freelance gig. Close to 8 months and 80 hours of audio files later, I’m the first person they contact.

So I must be good at it, right?


I like to choose jobs that are close to my passion: arts.

I’ve done the personal assistant job before and quit after 2 weeks because I did not see a future in it for me. The jobs that I take involving art all have one thing in common, I get to learn more about the industry.

Before I save enough to go back to school to learn – which I want to do for myself – I vowed that if I was given the choice to hustle my way through connections I make within the industry, I will take it.

Many people I know, my age and even older are sometimes too afraid to jump off the wagon and let themselves be trapped in an average 9-5 job because that’s what they’re comfortable with. I realized when I was in the corporate life that I hated that. I knew with every atom in my being that if I continued then I wouldn’t get to evolve as a person, nor would I get closer to what I wanted to do later in life.

I’m not saying it was easy, it’s still hard to do until today.

Waking up is a hustle, hearing my mother complain and offering me mundane safe jobs, getting compared to my parent’s friend’s children who are earning ten times what I do regularly is tough. But I push through, I’m grateful for the people that offered to mentor me and widen my connections because it is because of them that I am still hustling – and enjoying every bit of it.

Being 24 years old and working multiple jobs is not easy. I wouldn’t suggest it to just anyone, but if you want something the way I want my dream, it’s going to be worth every battle – even the ones with yourself.